The light
wool uniform was a tad baggy but not uncomfortable in the summer sun. It was a light gray and had the feel of
pajamas except for the number on the back and the stripes on the shirt and
pants. A blue stripe along the seams and
the number thirteen weighing upon my back decorated the otherwise nondescript
outfit. I had my glove in my hand and my
cap on my head. I was ready to walk to
the school.
I looked
back at the little box of cinderblocks I called home.
“Pink,” I
thought. “Of all the colors to paint a
house. Pink. Yuck.”
My folks had
moved here recently to be closer to my grandparent’s house since I had been
staying there during the school week. It
was a good feeling to know that my parents missed me enough to move closer so
that I could walk to our house instead of my grandparent’s. Yeah, it was a good feeling but it didn’t
quite make up for them not attending the game I was headed toward.
I had made
the baseball team. Well it was Little League,
but still. Yup, I was a little leaguer
and heading down the road to my first actual game.
“I better
walk,” I thought. “I might get grease from my bike chain on to my brand new
uniform and that wouldn’t do. They might
not let me play.”
The road
wound out of the subdivision onto Stono Shores Road. I picked up my pace from my usual mosey and
hurried along the side until I got to the Municipal Golf Course. Old Man Adams always ran us off the fairway
when he caught us but it never stopped us crossing over to get to school. He wasn’t around so it was clear walking
ahead. Crossing Maybank Highway was no
problem. It led to Johns Island and
nobody cared so it was a lonely stretch of two lane black top to the bridge
crossing the Stono.
I ran across
like always because it was a road and my parents had always told me to stay off
the road unless I wanted to be run over by an automobile. Though there wasn’t one I had no wish to
tempt fate. It was always possible an
out of control Ford could come barreling out of nowhere and run me over leaving
me on the side of the street like a flat cat, two days old.
So I scooted
across holding my glove firmly in my hand.
My folks had bought it for me last time we
were in Silver’s. It lay on the counter
smelling of new cut leather, and aphrodisiac to a young boy enamored of
baseball legends like Pee Wee Reese and Mickey Mantle. I reached up on the counter and pulled it off
and slipped it onto my left hand. The
feel of it was firm and caressing. I
plopped it onto my face and inhaled deeply.
The rich new leather smelled of calf and oil bursting with the promise
of super stardom on the baseball field.
I punched my
fist into the pocket and felt the slight stab of pressure against my palm.
“Wow! That’ll protect my hand against the sting of
a line drive,” I exclaimed.
My dad
nodded at me as he looked around for my mother who had walked into the lingerie
section.
“Can I get
this?” I asked him.
“Get what,
son?”
“This
glove. I’ll need it since I’m on the
team. All the guys have their own
glove. I’d really like to have my own so’s
I don’t have to borrow one when I go to the games.”
“You don’t
need a baseball glove,” he said still looking around the store.
“No, I guess
not.” I took it off my hand slowly
feeling the luxury of a real baseball mitt slip away. I put it back where it was but lingered
looking fondly at it.
“Oh, there
she is,” said dad. “Let’s go, son.”
He walked
off but I stayed on half listening to his words and half wandering into a
daydream.
“Batter up!”
yelled the ump as I stood on the pitcher’s mound staring at home plate. I slapped the ball into the pocket of my
brand new, genuine leather Spalding baseball mitt. Whap! It made contact as I studied the hand
signals of the catcher behind the opposing team member cracking the bat against
his cleated shoes. I shook my head. The catcher proposed a new signal. It looked more promising to me with this
batter. I nodded. For a minute I looked
around at the lead the runner on first had taken. He quickly sidestepped back toward first. I was satisfied. I knuckled the ball as I began my
windup. All the power in my body went
into that pitch and WHAP! It sliced through the batter’s swing and into the
catcher’s mitt. I smiled as he tossed it
in a high arc back to me, the ump’s shout of “STIKE ONE!” echoing in my ear.
I caught it
easily in the webbing of my glove. Out
of the corner of my eye I caught the runner edging off first. I whipped around placing the ball directly
into the glove of our first baseman. The
runner sprinted for second, missing it by a fraction of a second as the slap of
hardball against leather sounded an instant before he was tagged. The second out for our opponents. The second baseman tossed the ball to me.
Now to
strike this man out. I leaned toward
home plate watching the catcher’s fingers.
No. He sent another signal. No to
that as well. I nodded to his third
signal coiled my body and slipped that ball through the air right past the
magic space into soft leather.
“STRIKE TWO!”
yelled the umpire over the crowd’s roar.
I retrieved
the ball after it was tossed from first to third to second. Once again I leaned toward the plate and
nodded to the first signal. As I wound
up to burn that ball across the plate the crowd was roaring “Rick-ey! Rick-ey!”
“Rickey!
Son?! Are you alright?” My dad touched my shoulder waking me from my place on
the mound.
“Huh? Uh,
yes sir. Sorry,” I mumbled. I looked up
at the glove on the counter then at my dad.
“Couldn’t I
please have my own glove?”
“Son, we can’t
afford it right now.” It was his only
answer to my questions about buying something I wanted.
“What’s the
matter,” asked my mother as she walked up to us carrying boxes under her arm.
“Oh, Rickey,
wants me to buy some baseball glove. I
told him we can’t afford it.”
“Don’t you
remember I told you he’s joined the Little League?” asked my mother.
“Little
League? What’s that?”
“Baseball,
daddy. I got on the team. That’s why I need my own glove.”
“Oh. You
said you could borrow one, didn’t you?”
He was looking at me with a firm stare.
“Yes sir, I
can, but …”
“Well no
need to buy one then,” he answered.
“Yes sir,” came
my usual disappointed answer.
“Dear, can’t
we make an exception this time? He did
join up to play baseball. Can’t we
support him by getting the glove?” It
was my mother. It was completely out of
character. Any time my dad put the kibosh
on something it was totally kiboshed.
She was treading unsteady ground here.
“He said he
could borrow one. We don’t really have
the money to buy another toy.”
I almost
jumped in to say, it’s not a toy, but discretion and my mother’s quick look
stopped me before I could ruin the moment.
“He wants to
play baseball. What better way to play
than with his own glove? If it’s the
money I could cut some things from the grocery list for a few weeks. The glove is only ten dollars.”
“That’s a
lot of money for something frivolous.”
“Maybe so
but to a child it isn’t frivolous. Didn’t
you want something as a child that your parents thought frivolous?”
Dad seemed
to drift away. A frown grew across his
face. He nodded.
“Yes, I do.”
“You always
said you wanted your son to have better than you. Couldn’t we splurge a bit for him this
time? He went out especially to get on
the team. The other boys have their own
gloves I bet. It is baseball, after all,
the American past time.”
“We had
cricket. I don’t know anything about
baseball,” he said and it was so true.
He had no clue when he saw my baseball card collection. He just shook his as he fanned them out like
a deck of cards.
“He would
really feel more like a player with his own glove.” My mother was fighting hard to bring him
around. I looked up pleadingly at my
dad. He looked at me with that frown.
“You think
you can juggle the grocery money?”
“Yes, I
do. Shall we let him get it?” She smiled
at my dad. He melted under that smile’s
warmth.
“Well, if
you think you can swing it.”
“I do,” said
my mother.
Dad looked
at me and nodded his head. “Go ahead,
son. Get the glove.”
I had the
glove in my hand and was standing in front of the cashier before they could
change their minds. Dad took out his
wallet and counted out the price, then handed it to the lady behind the
counter. I grabbed my glove and ran outside.
I couldn’t believe my dad had just bought me my own baseball mitt. It was a rare occasion indeed.
My folks
came through the door. Dad looked at me
the spoke in his hard voice.
“You need to
thank you mother, son. She is the one who
will be finding the way to afford that thing.”
I wrapped my
arms around my mother. Holding her tight
I said over and over, “Thank you, momma.
Thank you. I’ll be the best
player on the team. I promise.”
I could see
a tear in her eye as I looked up. She
looked down at me and said, “You just enjoy yourself. You don’t have to be the best. You just enjoy yourself.”
The bus was
running when I got to the school. The
coach was counting the players as the got on board.
“Hurry up,
boy! We’re going to be late. What’s your name?” he asked as I got on the
bus.
“Rickey,” I
answered waving my glove at my buddy.
“Last one,’
he said. “Alright Charlie take us to the game.”
I sat on the
bench after my first time at bat. The
other team’s pitcher threw three sizzlers over home plate while I stood there
with the bat on my shoulder. My team
mates kept yelling for me to swing the bat, just swing the bat. I was
out my first time at bat. The coach
decided I was a better bench warmer than player so for the entire season I
warmed it. I never even got to play my
usual spot in the field during Little League games. I was only an outfielder when my buddies were
choosing up sides to play for fun. At
least I did when I was chosen.
My glove? It stayed well-oiled and in the closet after
my Little League career was finished which was one season on the bench. My batting average was 000 and my RBI’s were
zero. It’s hard to make averages when
you are mistaken for a football player.
I figured that was the problem since every time I left the bench to grab
a bat the coach would yell, “Get your tail back!” Not everybody can be a star, much less a
player.
And, yet, my
mother showed no disappointment in my baseball career. Both my parents worked to make ends meet
which meant they were never able to make it to any games. I never understood at the time but with age… My mother.
She has always been one in a million.
She always went to bat for me.